Thank you for the mention! I never realized how similar our experience was, not in symptoms but just in the breakdown. Something else about trauma is that it's incredibly hard to change one's point of view, unless something happens that causes you to wrestle and change your basic assumptions. That's where all these interesting problems arise I suppose. I'm so glad you can balance work again of some kind. In my heart I think it's another year before I can really get comfortable w ppl or try to travel, I'm in year 3, sigh. And i might be attempting something physically difficult but that's tmi for the comment section. Sending much hearts to your journey, inside and outside in Turkey. And I still hope I can hear your music!
Yep - there's a reason I find your work so comforting and interesting ;)
I think very few people really grapple with their fundamental assumptions in any meaningful way, and that those of us who are forced to are really being given a blessing in disguise. Granted, it's a reeeeeally good disguise.
Thanks for your supportive words - and I've been meaning to tell you I've found the CTT method *really* useful for expanding the range & quantity of what I can eat recently, which is huge. You're generously transmuting the tough metal of your difficult experiences into gold your readers can benefit from, and that's wonderful.
I had a pretty nice post.... UNTIL SUBSTACK DECIDED IT WAS TOO NICE TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY! it was so young!
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Anyway, I will be quick about it (...substack will pay one day...this is not the first we'll written comment I lose to "errors". By the way, I am not usually like this. Here I exaggerate for the comic effect and am pissed off because I think the comment was a good show of my development in a certain style of writing.)
A wave is ever changing yet remains the same wave.
A wave can be both high and low just like I am fluid in my: passions, relationships, energy etc.
A wave doesn't make difference just I try to be a good human being and not to make difference based on stereotypes and such.
When it comes to relationships:
Some people are like rocks, I (the wave) can either pass over them or smash into them. Both neither necessarily positive or negative.
Some other people are like wind or tides, for better or for worse they raise me higher or bring me lower but they are temporary.
Some other people are like seagulls, they just observe me.
Some people (my favourites) are like waves that run alongside me (temporally or permanently).
Sorry for it being so cold, but I don't have the passion to rewrite as it was in it's days of glory. You should've seen it, it was beautiful!
P.S.: Just like waves I come and I go and so do my things and apparently my proof I am getting better not only at story, but also at storytelling.
I love this Oscar. People's life philosophies should be designed to suit their own personality and what feels right to them - I don't think it's true that ideas are just ideas, they're always an outgrowth of our backgrounds and general vibes. You've owned that and crafted something that expresses who you, specifically, are.
"the river benefits everything and everyone just by flowing to the sea". Now, my philosophy of life is a wave, but this for a life philosophy wouldn't be half bad. I can actually think of some people that are unconsciously doing this.
P.S.: I love your post, I have read only one other so far but I am surely going to check out the others.
Thank you for the mention! I never realized how similar our experience was, not in symptoms but just in the breakdown. Something else about trauma is that it's incredibly hard to change one's point of view, unless something happens that causes you to wrestle and change your basic assumptions. That's where all these interesting problems arise I suppose. I'm so glad you can balance work again of some kind. In my heart I think it's another year before I can really get comfortable w ppl or try to travel, I'm in year 3, sigh. And i might be attempting something physically difficult but that's tmi for the comment section. Sending much hearts to your journey, inside and outside in Turkey. And I still hope I can hear your music!
Yep - there's a reason I find your work so comforting and interesting ;)
I think very few people really grapple with their fundamental assumptions in any meaningful way, and that those of us who are forced to are really being given a blessing in disguise. Granted, it's a reeeeeally good disguise.
Thanks for your supportive words - and I've been meaning to tell you I've found the CTT method *really* useful for expanding the range & quantity of what I can eat recently, which is huge. You're generously transmuting the tough metal of your difficult experiences into gold your readers can benefit from, and that's wonderful.
This was a joy to read. Thank you.
I had a pretty nice post.... UNTIL SUBSTACK DECIDED IT WAS TOO NICE TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY! it was so young!
.....
Anyway, I will be quick about it (...substack will pay one day...this is not the first we'll written comment I lose to "errors". By the way, I am not usually like this. Here I exaggerate for the comic effect and am pissed off because I think the comment was a good show of my development in a certain style of writing.)
A wave is ever changing yet remains the same wave.
A wave can be both high and low just like I am fluid in my: passions, relationships, energy etc.
A wave doesn't make difference just I try to be a good human being and not to make difference based on stereotypes and such.
When it comes to relationships:
Some people are like rocks, I (the wave) can either pass over them or smash into them. Both neither necessarily positive or negative.
Some other people are like wind or tides, for better or for worse they raise me higher or bring me lower but they are temporary.
Some other people are like seagulls, they just observe me.
Some people (my favourites) are like waves that run alongside me (temporally or permanently).
Sorry for it being so cold, but I don't have the passion to rewrite as it was in it's days of glory. You should've seen it, it was beautiful!
P.S.: Just like waves I come and I go and so do my things and apparently my proof I am getting better not only at story, but also at storytelling.
I love this Oscar. People's life philosophies should be designed to suit their own personality and what feels right to them - I don't think it's true that ideas are just ideas, they're always an outgrowth of our backgrounds and general vibes. You've owned that and crafted something that expresses who you, specifically, are.
"the river benefits everything and everyone just by flowing to the sea". Now, my philosophy of life is a wave, but this for a life philosophy wouldn't be half bad. I can actually think of some people that are unconsciously doing this.
P.S.: I love your post, I have read only one other so far but I am surely going to check out the others.
Thanks so much Oscar! As a fellow sea creature I'm interested in hearing more about this wave :)
I replied, but I accidentally made it a separate comment.