This essay was a little disturbing for me, because I don't think I've ever had anyone unlock a different side of me, to the extent I've shown different sides of myself recently, it's been an unilateral effort of me pushing against my inhibitions. I do talk about different subjects with different people, but I do feel I show everyone the same personality (which I worry has a bit of an autist fawn response going).
Eh, one more to the pile of evidence that I'm probably somewhere in the autism spectrum.
> to expand outward as far as I can and learn as much as I can, usually the hard way.
I've been doing that too, but I think to a large degree it's purely to get a dating life going, I think I'll be spending a lot more time at home if I get into a relationship.
You're not the only one who's pushed back on my idea of multiple personalities! Some people seem to experience themselves as having more of a 'core' that's consistent in every situation - sounds like an authentic way to be, I must say.
As for expanding outward, I wasn't necessarily talking about getting out a lot - despite everything I said in my piece about self-discovery through others, I still like the Tao Te Ching line 'Without going out your door you can know the whole world' ;)
Huh, I don't remember that line from TTC, that's very cool. Scott Alexander has this great essay about what fundamental experiences you're missing. I think we may be way underestimating just how radically different minds can be.
This rings very true for me. Before I retired, when I would occasionally be in a position to talk to groups of young librarians they would be astonished when I would tell them how introverted and shy I am. They’d only have known me as the frequent conference speaker, the leader of the rock band that performed at the annual convention, the writer/blogger known for speaking his mind. I’d laugh and explain that so much of it is performance, that when I had a specific role to play I could activate the necessary parts of my personality. They wouldn’t have seen the tremor in my hand as I approached the speaker’s podium, wouldn’t have known about the knots in my gut for the hour before the gig, but I knew that when I hit the first chord or popped up the first slide all my anxieties would dissipate and I’d be the relaxed and engaging, outgoing guy the occasion required. My wife was once described as having “whole cities inside her”, which is a very apt description. Far more than most of us, she’s always been very intentional about which cities get displayed to which people under which circumstances. So yes, I think we all are a collection of personalities and it’s in the interactions we have with others that different aspects come to the fore. You might enjoy a long essay I wrote a few years ago that goes into some of these issues in more detail. It’s on my old typepad blog which I kept for many years before moving to Substack. “You’re That Guy” https://tscott.typepad.com/tsp/2022/02/youre-that-guy.html
Fascinating stuff T. Scott - and very relatable, as a fellow musician who acts like a raving lunatic on stage and a confirmed introvert off it! I love the description 'whole cities inside her' - a rich inner life and an element of mystery makes someone so interesting, doesn't it? I'm gonna read your essay now!
This essay was a little disturbing for me, because I don't think I've ever had anyone unlock a different side of me, to the extent I've shown different sides of myself recently, it's been an unilateral effort of me pushing against my inhibitions. I do talk about different subjects with different people, but I do feel I show everyone the same personality (which I worry has a bit of an autist fawn response going).
Eh, one more to the pile of evidence that I'm probably somewhere in the autism spectrum.
> to expand outward as far as I can and learn as much as I can, usually the hard way.
I've been doing that too, but I think to a large degree it's purely to get a dating life going, I think I'll be spending a lot more time at home if I get into a relationship.
You're not the only one who's pushed back on my idea of multiple personalities! Some people seem to experience themselves as having more of a 'core' that's consistent in every situation - sounds like an authentic way to be, I must say.
As for expanding outward, I wasn't necessarily talking about getting out a lot - despite everything I said in my piece about self-discovery through others, I still like the Tao Te Ching line 'Without going out your door you can know the whole world' ;)
Huh, I don't remember that line from TTC, that's very cool. Scott Alexander has this great essay about what fundamental experiences you're missing. I think we may be way underestimating just how radically different minds can be.
Yes that’s a fantastic piece!
This rings very true for me. Before I retired, when I would occasionally be in a position to talk to groups of young librarians they would be astonished when I would tell them how introverted and shy I am. They’d only have known me as the frequent conference speaker, the leader of the rock band that performed at the annual convention, the writer/blogger known for speaking his mind. I’d laugh and explain that so much of it is performance, that when I had a specific role to play I could activate the necessary parts of my personality. They wouldn’t have seen the tremor in my hand as I approached the speaker’s podium, wouldn’t have known about the knots in my gut for the hour before the gig, but I knew that when I hit the first chord or popped up the first slide all my anxieties would dissipate and I’d be the relaxed and engaging, outgoing guy the occasion required. My wife was once described as having “whole cities inside her”, which is a very apt description. Far more than most of us, she’s always been very intentional about which cities get displayed to which people under which circumstances. So yes, I think we all are a collection of personalities and it’s in the interactions we have with others that different aspects come to the fore. You might enjoy a long essay I wrote a few years ago that goes into some of these issues in more detail. It’s on my old typepad blog which I kept for many years before moving to Substack. “You’re That Guy” https://tscott.typepad.com/tsp/2022/02/youre-that-guy.html
Fascinating stuff T. Scott - and very relatable, as a fellow musician who acts like a raving lunatic on stage and a confirmed introvert off it! I love the description 'whole cities inside her' - a rich inner life and an element of mystery makes someone so interesting, doesn't it? I'm gonna read your essay now!